All the lonely people

Grief is just so solitary. At other times of sadness there are people who can help us feel better, the people you love can be there for you to help you feel better. But when your baby dies everyone is sad. Everyone you love is also grieving. There is no one to help you by taking on some of the pain. My husband has his own pain. My daughter doesn't deserve to have to take on my pain. My friends have already taken on more than could have ever been expected of them. There is nowhere for this pain to go. It just crests over and over again and I just have to hold my breath and continue to try to paddle through it by myself at my pace all alone. Always alone.